Dear diary,
I feel really down today, not very happy, not so cheerful any longer. I wonder what is really deciding my emotions, but I only know that is bothering me very much. Whatever I am trying to do, it just turns out I am out of focus, like a old camera. My life at this moment sux really bad, that I can find something to be happy about or laugh at. I don't understand why people like to stand against me, may be that's because I am not too tall, not too great, or just I am weak. It bugs me, like putting a fish in front of a cat, but you don't let it have it, and I would be that cat. Nevertheless, I can relax and make up my mind, I guess that's my gift, special skill perhaps. However it doesn't change the situation that I am facing, everything is like the same until time goes on. I once have wished that time could stop, or even go back, but it just doesn't work that way. I am experiencing unlucky right at this point, everything just seems to be trying to pull my to the hole of emptiness, or the loneliness. I have many friends, more than I can actually count out, but I find it really funny, that whenever I need someone to talk with, there isn't anyone that I can fall onto, or just listen. I think to myself, may be I should really make a friend that is real, that is going to share with me, that is going to love me, and value me. May be I really should, or may be not. My friends are always busier than me, always have to do this or that when I have time. Why are we living in such two different world? I feel like being left out as an alien. It makes me sad that even alien would be chasing by the government secret organization, but what about me? Who cares and why would they? I wish everything just go right, such as a magic, then life will be easy again. I don't have any ideas where I did go wrong, but I guess it's life, which means I have to suck it up after all. Surely, I will recover my sad emotion, just like I am going to fix the dead computer, and be Willy once more. So here I am again, I have decided! Life is going to be perfect for Willy, no matter what it takes, with that goal, I will crush anyone who stands in my way, and tear down any wall that between me and my goals. Now smile for me, I am taking over this endless sadness! Willy should be happy, cheerful, and in control of things, just like the superb Willy. My friends, wait for my good news; my enemy, bewares, because the victory is mine!!! No more upset, no more tears! Fight on!
Willy
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